Twenty-four hours ago I was in, or just coming out of, surgery. Going into it this time was much less nerve-wracking; I knew a little more what to expect from prep (that getting an IV is not that bad) and that I would be conked out for it. I’m a funny girl, but I like anesthesia! That swirly-wirly feeling going out, the deep relaxation of coming back in…obviously I’m not going to put myself in for any more of it than is necessary, but I do kind of like it.
Post-op this time has been more difficult than after the biopsy. Then, I went home that day, my arm was sore and I was tired for a couple of days, but I was up and around fairly soon and feeling decent. This time, while the surgical site has not been too painful–the doctor was able to do the job with the needle so did not need to make an incision–my back and shoulder muscles have been knotted and painful. I am normally a side sleeper, so being on my back in the hospital bed (and, being in a hospital bed) has not been my favorite. Probably the most emotionally difficult of the physical effects, though, has been that I can’t take full breaths since the tube is interfering. Or it could be the 600 ccs of fluid that were drained from around my heart yesterday–might take a while for things to adjust in there! It is better this morning–or I have just adjusted overnight–but it is annoying in that “I am going to fixate on this problem as the source of all frustration” kind of way. At least I was last night. It really is a new morning.
So. The sun is not shining, but the local farmers market is opening for the season today. My wonderful husband went through a raging thunderstorm and various mishaps to sit with me for a while last night and pray with me. I can get up on my own today without feeling much pain or any dizziness. We got a peek at baby yesterday before surgery and a listen-in afterward. The deep exhaustion is gone and I feel like I can have a conversation without falling asleep in the middle.
I am more and more aware of what good health care I have, and thankful for it. The doctor visits and surgery are stressful and exhausting…but where would I be without them? Thanking God today for all of the doctors, nurses, and other hospital staff who are looking out for me. For modern technology, especially the ultrasound scope that guided the doctor yesterday and for the handheld (oh yes! iPhone size) ultrasound that showed that precious flicker. For pretty decent hospital food and all-I-can-drink ice water. And, not least of all, for the hospital wireless network, without which I could not bring you this timely update. 🙂
Happy Saturday, everyone!